It’s a BOY!!!
I have always wanted a family. My childhood was a difficult one in which I was separated from my grandparents and extended family when I was about five years old. I never felt lonely. I grew up in a big family surrounded by aunts, cousins, and my grandparents. I had no need of any brothers or sisters in that time because I had it all.
Things changed when I traveled to the States. It was only my parents and me. It was tough and I felt very lonely dreaming of having a sibling which never came. Being lonely became the worst feeling which accompanied me throughout the years.
That is why I always dreamed of being married and having children. I wanted to suppress the feeling of being lonely and my mind found peace imagining having a family of my own.However, pain came into my life to transform my dream into fear. I was scared of loving because that meant there was a huge risk of suffering. The more one loves the more one can suffer.
After getting married I avoided any discussion of having children. At first I hid by stating that I wanted to enjoy my time alone as a couple with my wife but years went by and realized that I did not want children because of my fear. I was honest and told my wife that I might not ever want children and it was hard for her. I even tried to convince her by telling her all the risks there were of suffering. Despite my arguments my wife did not give in to this idea and became very sad and I consoled her by telling her that I might change my mind.
Fortunately, I began to change. We used to live with my in-laws and although they were very kind to us it did not help our relationship grow. As soon as we moved things changed in our lives. We talked more, shared many more things, and starting depending on each other. This caused an instant reaction. There was a void to be filled. I mean, as our relationship grew stronger, the feeling of building a family was born in my heart. The love Marisu and I had is so big that I noticed that my fears started to fade away. The idea of creating life with the woman I so truly love was so pure, magical that it overpowered the fear of suffering.
After knowing that my wife was pregnant life changed and we got excited. We started dreaming and for some reason we visualized a baby girl. We then noticed that most of our loved ones also had that same idea of having a girl but a few days we got the news that IT IS A BOY!!!
God is so great. Even though sometimes you don’t get what you think you want, God is wiser and knows you much better. There is no one in this world that loves us more than God and I am convinced that all His decisions are what are best for our lives. In his wisdom and love he chose a baby boy to come into our lives and I thank HIM so much. I trust God and know that my son will be the purest expression of the love I have with my wife. He is a gift and we have been awarded the privilege of raising him and guiding him.
Thank you God for giving me a son. Thank you so much for placing Marisu in my life and for giving me such great responsibility for looking after them. I can’t wait to meet my baby boy!!!